not doing this anymore

I'm tired of being accussed,
 tired of every day being put in a place of upset and worry.
 I have a goal in mind and I can't keep asking myself to look in the mirror.
 and see what it is that's so unforgivable.
 I see myself as being a good woman. a good provider.
 who is living a divine life. and getting through all of the struggles.
Many men have been in this field and have given themselves a struggle.

 Lets think about it this way.
You get two Strikes essentially in life.
You have a kid and then you get a ticket with the law.

 I have figured this with my father , My sons father and it is almost to the point  where he is giving up. I can't create a haven. if you only see hell.
I know for a fact I'm not the one you want.
 I know for a fact that you see no good in me.
So it is time I just let you go. It's time I suffer on my own and not be  demean and dammed by your presents.
 you see nothing in me but death and hell.
You see nothing positive in me.
I see you as a man who is on the rocky edge,
Start a business
 get a loan
 get to know yourself
 and don't soop to the level of others just because they succeeded and you didn't.
 you don't know how low they have gone to get the little they have.