questions un answered

 Is life worth living if you have failed repeatedly? What is stopping every one from comiting suicide or joining the bum club. Is it there family, their career?  Music? the what if factor? or is it simpliy because they  don't know what is on the other side and choose not to risk what might be, for what is.
What is failure and what is success? we seem to love success (the end result) and resent failure. What is the true  meaning of being powerful and successful? Is it the saticifation that you can buy every thing you desire/. is it to have happiness and love? Is it to have children and tour the world? is it to be a movie star with eyes constantly on you? What is it and how come i can not figure it all out. Am I two young to realize it. have i reached a peak in my intelligence . or is it simply staring at me in my face. and i choose not to except the knowledge from within?

Can I have a career that I love and never get tired of ?
Is my life hard because of what I have done in my past life or  the one  i live today?Am I unhappy because Im not religious?
My questions make me run wild.
Will I end up as my mother unstaticified and falling from below the soil to the core of the earth? I  seem to answer other peoples questions but some how I can not answer  questions of my own. My godly powers  are not ever enough for me. I want to explore the arts and pursue the careers of architecture, Directing, Musical performance and sing my heart out. i want to  bake for my family and most of all talk to those who give me purpose and keep me going . I could never end a post so I wont end this one yet. If life is a learning experience ,will I die when all my lessons are finished or when I can say that this world no longer matters? Whats on the otherside, Black fire and yellow sun or cloudy rain  and endless winter. I would never know but the thought some days scare me and other days it doesn't even bother me.