College#1

                    College seems to be moving by as fast,  if  not faster than High School. There is this long lost saying that  my grandfather says very often. 'Enjoy life while you can, because, before you know it it will be over.'  I have been here at  college now, since about August 29th,2012 and it has not been more than two months since leaving home. Over this period of time I have seen so much and come to a better understanding about people.
                    Just like in high school you have a number of 'clicks',  or "Gangs," Here you have groups of people that categorize themselves by sport and major. The basket ball payers eat together, the softball players study together, and the dancers get ready together every morning.  Honestly, people have not changed much at all. Everyone wants  to have their on place, hence a since of belonging. This relates to the curricular activities that people are involved in as well as the things they do in their spare time. I myself, always saw that |(although I was out going) I had a since of displacement, a feeling that I did not belong, or no matter who I was I wasn't good enough. Now that I have entered college I still feel this way but the difference is that people now want to except me for who I am and admire that I am just an individual, who is smart, loving and caring. I try to thing of myself as a lady who has a few corks and that is plan and weird and comfortable.
                   I know in high-school and in middle school many may be the outsiders and the people no one likes but maintaining  who you are and adapting only when you need to is an essential part of who you are and what you could become. Many people will tell you that you are "ugly, fat, stupid, weird and even never going to amount to anything," but with belief that you are more than the words people label you with you can over come anything. Everyone wants a place to be long, but just make sure that is were you want to be. Don't be in the in crowd just to say that your in because the moment your in that's the moment your out of touch with yourself or the moment that there into you.
Love you and except yourself and you will never have a need to fit in with others who are nothing like you.

I'll be back to tell you more about college ,this is just a pitch or pepper there is still lots more to go around. -Harlab12 
 

questions un answered

 Is life worth living if you have failed repeatedly? What is stopping every one from comiting suicide or joining the bum club. Is it there family, their career?  Music? the what if factor? or is it simpliy because they  don't know what is on the other side and choose not to risk what might be, for what is.
What is failure and what is success? we seem to love success (the end result) and resent failure. What is the true  meaning of being powerful and successful? Is it the saticifation that you can buy every thing you desire/. is it to have happiness and love? Is it to have children and tour the world? is it to be a movie star with eyes constantly on you? What is it and how come i can not figure it all out. Am I two young to realize it. have i reached a peak in my intelligence . or is it simply staring at me in my face. and i choose not to except the knowledge from within?

Can I have a career that I love and never get tired of ?
Is my life hard because of what I have done in my past life or  the one  i live today?Am I unhappy because Im not religious?
My questions make me run wild.
Will I end up as my mother unstaticified and falling from below the soil to the core of the earth? I  seem to answer other peoples questions but some how I can not answer  questions of my own. My godly powers  are not ever enough for me. I want to explore the arts and pursue the careers of architecture, Directing, Musical performance and sing my heart out. i want to  bake for my family and most of all talk to those who give me purpose and keep me going . I could never end a post so I wont end this one yet. If life is a learning experience ,will I die when all my lessons are finished or when I can say that this world no longer matters? Whats on the otherside, Black fire and yellow sun or cloudy rain  and endless winter. I would never know but the thought some days scare me and other days it doesn't even bother me.

I can be afraid.1.2

you can be afraid  to live and explore
Or you can live and have more then what you know today
you can be afraid to have love
or care until you can't anymore

 you were proud to have some one by your side 
But this was fact,  that you still missed excepting yourself
you would sacrifice for a friend or a loved one
but couldn't stand on your own to see

That the love was here existing all along
However you only saw it and shared it with another
 There was a need to find it
however it was here the entire time

To look with the eyes of blindness
only to feel it there  in the dark
 To  be mute with no voice to speak
only to know your thoughts are valid


You are like no other
yet an still you are human
You are a creature that was created
yet and still you are not perfect


To look at life in a fraction of few
 To say that millions are just like you
One life is known to live
To make the best and simply give

Give yourself   more than you deserve
you do to everyone else
Let the fears be just that
you  must  break through

..... as if it where your last lap